My dear SN


S.N.Subramanian
S.N.S
So, you have departed from this Earth! This is not a letter to you S.N. It is just a collection thoughts that keep entering and exiting ever since I read that you are on a ventilator. You, on a ventilator! You have told me you were a ventilator to a few who were about to end their life. But they all survived but you SN...

இரண்டு நாட்களாக, காமோ சோமோ என்று எண்ணங்கள் வந்து போய்க்கொண்டு இருக்கின்றன.
எதுவும் கோர்வை இல்லாமல், நொடிப்பொழுதே உயிருடன் இருந்து, நீர்க்குமிழி போல

I wanted to write here so many things but the thoughts are too crowded to put them into words coherently. There is so much emotional fog.

You may want to know how all of us are reacting to your demise.
The truth that you are no more is hard to digest. Very hard SN. Yes, every one of us cried.
I could hear Teresnathan sobbing. Kasturirangan choked for words.

I have told you several times that I always think of you whenever:
I see a lovely place
I read a thought provoking book
I hear a song that I was sure you also would love

All these years, I kept sharing with you virtually, all that made me happy. You have now put a FULL STOP to it. என்னிடத்தில் இருந்து ஏதோ ஒரு பாளம் உடைந்தது போல் .....
You were constantly in my thoughts since we met in 1971. OMG! 46 years of friendship is now dissolved in water. That's how I feel.

This not a letter on paper SN; the words are written in space. If your BABA truly loved you, let him bring this to you.